In the past, my prayers were mainly prayers of thanksgiving and praise. I have been fortunate enough to be able to take care of most of my needs with the natural abilities allotted me. I have been able to provide food, clothes, shelter and some pleasures by just using the basic powers that most people have. Even though, I acknowledge that they came from God’s goodness, they don’t seem to be of a divine nature.
I now have a tremendous need, and no matter what I know about God’s generosity, it is not easy to ask Him to do something so specifically for me; my youngest daughter has just learned that she has cancer. Her doctor says that it is so situated that surgery is not an option: she must rely upon radiation or some kind of chemical therapy.
If I needed a house, I could build me one, if I needed food I could earn some money and buy it, if I needed clothes I could buy them also. I know that God knows that my daughter is sick and I know that God loves both of us. I don’t want to be a bother to you Lord, but I love my daughter and I want her healed; and I, with all the strength and ability that I could crowd together, cannot change one cell in her body. I am now caught between a rock and a hard place that is harder than I have ever encountered before. I know for certain, that concerning her body, I am helpless. I want your will to be done Lord, but I also want my daughter to be healed.
Far be it from me to try to manipulate your intentions, but if you will bless the minds of the learned physicians who will be planning the course of treatment, I will be forever grateful: I will also be grateful if you choose to heal her by yourself. I want your will to take precedence over mine in every situation, but in our present predicament, I pray that your will coincides with mine.
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